Undone in His Presence

Prayer from the secret place...

Holy God, 
If I be found worthy
touch my lips with a coal 
from you holy altar!
And if I be found unworthy,
Make me holy.
Burn in me with Your fiery LOVE 
until I have surrendered all to You.
Make me holy
Send Your holy angel 
to touch my lips
With tongs and a burning coal 
from your holy altar!
Make me a burning one!
Let grace fall from my lips
that I may bless what Your work.
God use me to further Your kingdom!

I want to be undone
In Your holy presence,
Captivated by Your LOVE
Unravelled--
I want to be completely undone, O God!
Set an uncontainable fire in the midst of my bones!
Oh, that my heart were fully ablaze for You, God!
Consume me, God!
Overtake me with Your Goodness!
Baptize me again with Your fire 
and with Your Holy Spirit!
Let no part of me be go unconsumed by You, Oh God!
All of me
In Your holy glory.

In Jesus' name, Amen.

Inspired by Isaiah 6, Jeremiah 33:3, Matthew 3:11, Revelation 4

Heart Prayer

My heart prays...

How is it that I am distracted by You, my Lord!
I think of You when I rise in the morning
And I cannot stop thinking about You all day.

I am in quiet repose
Here, hidden away
In the most secret place of Your heart, O God.
I have laid myself on Your holy altar.
Take all of me, use me for Your glory!
Burn away those things that are not right in me.

Your love for me is wild, it is furious, liquid, pure, refining fire...
I am constantly amazed at the power of Your love!
Your love washing over me and changing me--
How could I ever be the same after I am immersed in Your love?

I long for everyone in the world to know You, my Lord.
If they only knew! 
How easy it is to love You, to know You!
Will You show them?
Teach us how to pray, Lord.
Help us to understand Your holy Word.
Help us to continuously declare you as Lord of our lives
Keep us hungry for Your WORD, 
For Your presence, 
For Your love.
Fill us up, God!
Fill us up to overflowing and out of that overflow 
We might encourage others
To know You.
Take us deep into Your mysteries, God!
Open the eyes of our hearts,
Give us Your divine wisdom, God!
We cry out to You for more!
In Jesus' name, Amen

Prayer inspired by Song of Solomon and St. John 17

O, Sacred Light Consume Me!

Prayer

O Sacred Light Consume me!

Baptize me again in your most holy and furiously amazing LOVE!

Wash me from my sins, 

from striving, 

from perfection,

from wandering about in my own worldly darkness.

save me again

and let me die to myself and be made alive in You.

How I am completely undone in Your presence!

O, Holy Father of Lights,

I long for every good and every perfect thing that You have for me.

My soul aches and yearns for more of You.

When may I be held in Your arms once again close to Your heart?

My heart cannot move, but to hear Yours beat first.

Baptize me in Your LOVE again!

Let me never forget You.

Remind me of Your pain, Your struggle, on the night they betrayed You.

O, Sacred heavenly Light to consume me in Your loving presence.

Let me behold Your beautiful face.

I wish that I could have been the one to wipe the blood from Your brow,

To have caught the sweat from your body as You carried Your cross,

I would take the crown of thorns for You,

I should have been the one...

not You, my sweet Lord, not You.

Ah! You knew me even then... 

You were in hot pursuit of me. 

Even then You knew the truth about me:

I would have reacted in fear- 

though today my heart looks back with hopeful courage

as if I were then, the person You have made me to be now.

Forgive me of my own neglect of You.

My soul longs for Your breath

I cannot live but to breathe in Your holy presence-

I cannot go on without Your life in me, God!

My spirit longs for You

Come fill me again, God-

Overflow me with Your presence!

Let me be fully light!

O most holy sacred Light,

There are many who do not know you yet...

Open the eyes of their understanding

Give them Your holy wisdom and revelation!

How my heat longs for them to know You,

That they too might be consumed by your holy LOVE and light.

In Jesus' holy name,

Amen

John 17, Ephesians 1:17-21

Come Up Here!

One night, I heard the voice of the Father saying:

"Come up here! Come up here! And I will show you deep and unsearchable things!"

My soul was quickly taken by the angel near me...
I was carried gently in the Spirit by the strong arms into third heaven.
I was shown amazing and mysterious things.
Upon entering heaven, numerous smiling angels greeted me!
"Welcome!" they exclaimed and hastily placed a white robe over me.
I was ushered along a beauteous path towards the throne room.
There was such excitement at my visit!

However, in the midst of all the glory of heaven my heart was reminded of earth and everything that I am responsible for... My heart became too heavy. I began to sink back down to the earth. Heaviness had overcome my heart.  

I soon felt the sadness of the angel who had so quickly taken me into this glorious place. 

"I must see the one who sits on the throne!" my heart exclaimed. The angel was elated. The entire journey took only seconds and I was back!

"Welcome back!" the angels exclaimed again with great laughter. I had not realized that my robe had fallen off in my heaviness.

It was a robe of righteousness. 

The robe was placed upon me again.

Now, I understand the whole thing. 
I am called to focus on the One on the throne and to live in this place of victory. 

How, my Lord? I do not deserve this robe. He talked to me about many things. He has called me to intercession. To be join the watchman on the walls. To pray into His will and defend His plans for all who live on the earth. 

I feel His heart so today. He is longing to be closer. I am overtaken by His love. Everything I do is consumed by His love and I desire more of Him... 

My Father takes me onto His lap. He pulls me in closer to His heart. I see the many colors! Ah, colors I have never seen before! I am thrilled and energized by His love! I hear His laughter over me. He sits me down and dances all around me! He lifts His knees and His feet go wild all around me! (Zephaniah 3). I have not known love like this before. I am full of God! My heart is full! 

This song below has really moved my heart towards intercession.
May you be blessed in the Lord beyond your wildest imagination!

Soak Me Through, My Sweet Lord

I have laid my self down for You, my Lord.
Soak me through. Fill me up with Your LOVE!
For I am longing for more of Your holy presence.

When I am in Your presence, every part of me is laid down.

I am a laid down Lover for You, my sweet Lord.

His left arm is under my head
and His right arm embraces me.
Song of Solomon 2:6

I am a laid down Lover of Yours, ohh, my sweet Lord.
Soak me through...

I've finally found my place, where I belong! In the presence of my sweet LOVE: Jesus.

How I yearn for you when I am away from You. How I feel you longing for me to come back!

"Meet me in our favorite spot," You said to me.

Ahh, how...I delight to sit in His shade...
Song of Solomon 2:3

We met under the apple tree. He had prepared a meal for us to share together. I poured my pink wine on Him. He was filled with joy at my offering to Him. I was so moved and I wept because it was hardly enough after what He had done for me. 

I was captivated by a single scar on His arm! 

...Place me like a seal over your heart,
like a seal on your arm...
Song of Solomon 8:6

I wept at the sight of His arm for I knew that He took that beating for me! He was wounded and violently bruised for my transgressions! Ahh, my Lord! My sweet LOVE! Look at what they...I...did...

"Ah, my Love! I am so sorry, I am so sorry!" I wept until I could weep no more. He showed it all to me, every scar, every sadness, every weight of every sin cast upon Him. Every insult hurled at Him unnecessarily. 

All for me. All for love. 

...My Beloved is mine and I am His...
Song of Solomon 2:16 

I have been baptized in your love, forever transformed! All for love! My Jesus, You did this all for Your LOVE for me! And for the joy set beforeYou! And You have freely given me this joy! You call me your Beloved! 

"My Lord, You are my Beloved and I am Yours! Show me more, show me all of Your glory! Take me deeper into Your love," my heart cried, for I have yearned for more of His love.

Then He danced over me beneath the apple tree and my heart was filled with gratitude! 
Soak me through, God! Let Your love and peace fall afresh on me! I want to see You in all of Your glory! To be filled with Your holy presence! Immersed in Your liquid LOVE! Aglow with Your fiery passion. 

Hold me. Do not let me go. Pull me in tighter to Your holy heart. Just in case I missed one word, one beat...anything. Hold me in Your strong arms and soak me through.

Ahh, we are one, my Lord, my LOVE!

We are one! I am raptured by Your amazing LOVE! 

Hide me in that place deep inside of You, my Lord. 

He said to me one day:
"Take me to the secret place in our garden. The deepest part within the apple tree."

So we ate together for many days beneath the apple tree, and talked about many things.

Another time He said to me: 
"Feed me your apples," He said to me, "I will feed you red and green grapes."

His smile radiated through me!

We ate together and walked with arms linked very slowly around the garden.

I want to go higher, I desire to go deeper with You. I am lovesick.

Oh, my Lord, many waters cannot quench this LOVE I have for you!
Song of Solomon 8:7

Ahh, my sweet LOVE! Do not hold back from me. Let me behold Your beauty for all of my days! 
Let me gaze into Your eyes. I will take all of eternity to memorize You, my sweet Lord.

Ohh, Jesus! You electrify my soul!!

How did I ever walk so far away from you all those many years?
I was so far from year heart, yet You loved me. You came leaping over the mountains towards me.
You made every valley a mountain, and every mountain a valley under Your holy feet on Your journey to me!

Yet, it was I. I was the one who found You.

And You let me think that it was all my idea!

Sweet surrender. You take my breath away and have given me Yours.

I am at peace in my Lover's strong arms. 

I breathe You. 

You've soaked me through.





Let us always be 'looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.' Hebrews 12:2

God, You've Memorized Me

I had been in the middle of the storm.

My soul asked, "Where do I look, God? I cannot see you."

I was blinded by the chaos...Couldn't focus much on anything.

Ahh, there are so many distractions keeping me from you, oh God.

The enemy keeps coming at me with drama and foolishness, but it looks so real.

Almost believed him...that devil.

I hear a song breaking through the atmosphere around me. I am covered. You know me, God.

You have calmed the waves of the crashing seas. Taught me how to walk on water.

I can see now. I am in the place where I belong...I am well covered in your hands. The storm is forgotten when I am where I belong. How could I have ever, ever wandered from you? The air I breathe, my energy, my strength, my LOVE! I am your Beloved. You memorized me, every detail.

"Be Loved," you said, "allow me to love you. You don't have to work for it. You never had to earn it."

"Ahh, my LOVE! How you have captured my heart!" My soul exclaimed into the silence.

Light has broken through. Nothing is ever hidden from you, my LOVE.

I am free. Revelation!

Ohhh, I am yours! How you captivate me! Your love has ravished my heart and has overtaken me!

You are mine. 

God, show me your heart, pull me in closer, closer...closer still. I remember now...

You created my inmost being...
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—    
when I awake, I am still with you, 
(NIV 2011, www.biblegateway.com, Psalm 139).

You have memorized me, my LOVE.



Lyrics to "You Know Me" by Bethel Music

You have been
And You will be
And You have seen
And You will see

You know when I rise and when I fall
When I come or go, You see it all
You hung the stars and You move the sea,
And still You know me

Oh, You know me, Oh

And nothing is hidden from Your sight
Wherever I go, You find me
And You know every detail of my life
And You are God and You don't miss a thing

And nothing is hidden from Your sight
Wherever I go, You find me
And You know every detail of my life
And You are God and You don't miss a thing

Oh, You know me
Oh, You know me
Oh, You know me, Oh

You memorize me
You have been
And You will be
You have seen
And You will see

You know when I rise and when I fall
When I come or go, You see it all
You hung the stars and You move the sea,
And still You know me
Oh , You know me

Somewhere Between Earth and Heaven

I have been caught up in this space somewhere between earth and heaven.

This loving God has me in this place close to His heart where He gently talks to me. I am His friend. God is my best friend, my Father, my Papa.

He carries me upwards. I am resting my head on His chest...weightless in His arms...at peace.

Every trial, every struggle is gone when I look into His fiery eyes.

He is singing this song in me, through me, my heart has been aligned with His. Every beat pulses LOVE through me. His love is furious and fiery! His Son's blood courses through my veins! My brother, my Lover, Jesus, Son of the Living God has made me completely His Father's daughter.

Somewhere between earth and heaven I am away from the struggles of physical illness, tiredness, pain and a weary body.

 Angels escort us. Numerous angels of every size and kind. Some have four wings and they run alongside, others prepare the way, but they have two wings with faces like white lions and eagles... Some can only fly, and they have six fiery wings.

In His arms I am royalty. In His arms I am consumed by pure, fiery and amazing LOVE.

Am I dying? No! I am coming to life! His blood courses through me. I hear the strains of songs coming to my ears from around His throne in heaven.

Jesus is dancing, rejoicing, filled with joy! This music leaves quite an impression on my heart.

Papa God lays this girl gently back down onto the earth. Whoosh! I turn to see my bedroom again...

I am strengthened for today.

Grace, grace for life more abundant...somewhere between earth and heaven in my Father's arms.

This song has deep meaning for me. I pray it blesses you as well.
The words are so beautiful and express almost exactly how I feel in my Father's arms.
Steffany Frizzell singing Closer with the Jesus Culture Band at Bethel Church in Redding, California.



Father, I pray that the eyes of their understanding might be opened. That you might take them deeper into the revelations of your amazing LOVE. Open the eyes or our hearts, open our ears, Father. In Jesus' name, Amen. (prayer based on Ephesians 1:17-18, NIV 2011, www.biblegateway.com).