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Five Years Ago On July 5th, 2011

Five years ago today, on July 5, 2011, I had a powerful encounter with Father God. I was in deep prayer and fasting. I had been invited to play softball with a few peers from church the day before, but I felt that it was more important for me to spend time with the Father God. I also felt that I needed to spend time with my family that day being that it was the 4^th of July weekend.

I experienced a lot of condemnation from the enemy for not hanging out with the church kids. Today, I look back with eyes of discernment and wisdom. I instead got up early to pray and then went to spend the holiday with my Grandmother and sister. It so turns out that those were very precious moments with my Grandmother and sister because that was the last 4th of July I had with her. I took photos of the three of us. It felt like one of those sacred moments. Last August 2015, my Grandmother passed joyfully into the glory of heaven to meet with Jesus at age 89. I was able to be by her bedside to comfort her and to pray.

On July 5, 2011, Father God had encountered me around 5 a.m. and told me to move more than 400 miles south of my hometown. He had told me to enroll in seminary and gave me very detailed instructions. I did as He instructed and I have never looked back. I met my husband and we have been blessed to see the goodness of God in the land of the living.

As I continue my studies in seminary, I look back at the last five years.

I was so scared to move away from home, from my family, from my church, from everything I knew, but there was no doubt that I had heard the voce of God speaking to me. I told Father God how scared I was and He told me that I would have deep regrets in not following His kind voice. Faith arose in me. I realized that the fear I had was from the enemy. Father God sent his intercessors and prophets to me to confirm that I was on the right track and doing the right thing. They encouraged me and said the things that I needed to hear at the right moments. My pastor and his wife encouraged me to move. My boss, came to me with great sadness but still encouraged me to move and told me how going to seminary would be a good thing. I realized that I had a small band of cheerleaders in the spirit-realm.

At the time a certain song was playing on the Christian radio. The song ministered to me very deeply and gave me strength to move forward in faith. I felt the Father’s love and His comfort. I’ve blogged about he song before, but someone needs to listen to the song and know that God is speaking to you. He always speaks in peace and love, never in fear, or manipulation, or legalism, and torment. God is pure love.

‘Cause I don’t wanna live like I don’t care

I don’t wanna say another empty prayer

Oh, I refuse to sit around and wait for someone else

To do what God has called me to do myself.

Oh, I could choose not to move, but I refuse.

-Josh Wilson, "I Refuse" chorus

Josh Wilson performing "I Refuse" on Vevo:

In the Quiet

Quiet yourself, little one.
Be still.
Rest in the knowledge that 
Our God is real.
Be encouraged by the sound 
Of His mighty angels!
How they protect you from the evil one!

Can you hear them singing?
The saints and angels in joyous song! 
All praise to the Father of Lights
Who sits upon His throne:
The Great Judge in awe of His creation!

Revelations come
Like flashes of light.

May you live in total shalom.
Grace and peace to you
Remember that you are never alone.
The glory of God surrounds you.

Rest in His embrace.
How He loves you!

Can you see Him dancing?
Can you hear Him singing?
How He rejoices wildly over you, little one.
Now, quiet yourself and be still.
Settle down
Enjoy His joyous revelation.
Rest yourself.

The Father's Table

Grace and peace, blessings, and joyous Easter Greetings to you all!

I have been going through a glorious season of deep inner healing lately. Father God is encountering me daily and has been talking to me about my identity in Him. He's taking me deeper into His love and into revelations of who He is: my Heavenly Father, our Heavenly Father.

I had an encounter that I know was not just for me. I feel that I am to share this with you so that you too can be blessed and encouraged:

I was taken up into a heavenly place. Father God welcomed me like I was the most important guest! He hugged me and it was the best Fatherly hug ever! Then he stood behind me and placed a beautiful robe on me that was made from His robe, and I felt like I did not deserve it. His robe was white with golden detail and my robe matched His robe.

He took me to this HUGE room where there was a banquet table and it went on for what looked like miles. There was so much food and detail and it was beyond lavish! He sat down at the head of the table and invited me to sit on His right hand side. We talked and talked and he offered me all kinds of yummy foods. Apples, raisins, dates, grapes, bread...red wine that turned golden when you drank it.... I felt like I was supposed to let Him lead the conversation and that it was no time for me to ask Him about my lengthy list of needs, wants and desires, people on my heart, and prayer requests.

I was mesmerized by His eyes, His beautiful eyes. I felt like the more I looked into His eyes the more healing came to my soul! It was glorious.

I began to notice that we were alone at the table except for a few saints who were trying to serve the Father and he would not accept their service because it was His time to serve them! So they stood frozen behind their chairs unwilling to receive this revelation. I noticed beautiful golden doors behind each chair for those who were invited to come and dine with the Father and did not make it. I noticed some saints sitting with their chairs backwards and they were on their cell phones boasting about the time they were spending with Him, but they were not even interacting with Him, nor were they looking at Him. They had their focus on the open doors, which needed to be shut.

I feel like the Father was showing me that He wants to dine with each of us like this. He wants to encounter us and take us deeper into revelations of His love and of His glory! But He wants to do it without distraction.

Are you feeling stressed out and distracted?

Find a quiet place to look into the eyes of the Father. Let go of perfectionism and striving.

Sit with the Father in glory and drink from His table, eat with Him and learn beautiful things about His character, His love, His peace.

I pray that you all have a glorious Easter and Passover!

Land of Milk and Honey, Pt. 3

A response to Psalm 91:1-4 using the Amplified Bible and the Passion Translation of the Psalms: "Poetry On Fire"

The place where He has me 

Is high up and in one of the clefts of the rocks there.

And I'm to high up for the enemy to reach.

All communications are scrambled between me and the heavenly Father.

Oh no, the enemy cannot figure out where I've disappeared off to.

He used to torment me with fiery darts

Aimed at my heart (doubt, fear, anxiety)...

Aimed at my back (words, gossip, back bitting)

Aimed at my mind 
(bad recordings, self curses I had agreed with and gave him access to my land).

Some say only ancient ruins are there, but no... 

Ignore the whispers and doctrines of demons.

Look to the light of God's face.

Look into His loving eyes.

God's presence is here all around me! 

I am safely hidden 

Hidden securely in His glorious presence! 

The manifested glory:

His angelic army protects me. 

Shoulder to shoulder they stand like 10 feet tall pillars of fire!

I'm inclined to lay my entire self on the altar there baring my soul, repenting...

I know I don't deserve such VIP attention from the heavenly Creator of the Universe!

But then He comes, 

He places a robe of righteousness upon me, 

He tells me I'm SUPERnatural royalty. 

He seats me on His lap!

I feel unworthy. 

I am unafraid. 

I am wealthy here! 

I feel clean. 

I see it now! 

His holy wings bring a dark glory cloud over me, (not confusion). 

How deep, how wide, how vast is His LOVE! 

His banner of love over me!

He places me in ministry here in the land of milk and honey!

I find that I am overwhelmed with an abundance of milk!

And I never run out of His sweet and delightful honey.

Misty Edwards with Cassie Campbell on guitar singing her song "Garden" July 2011

Fog on the Mountaintop, Part 2

This is a continuation of my previous blog post and things I am pondering about my journey with Jesus...

In 2011, God spoke to me to take a trip and to visit what I will now call the "promised land" in which He would give me, the place where He was leading me. I could not help but to think about how Joshua in the Bible sent spies into the promised land (Joshua 2) before possessing the land. The story had been fresh in my mind since all that year my pastor had been preaching on crossing the Jordan River. This trip was what gave me strength to make the big move. I took the trip alone and I was afraid of what people might think of me. Something about telling people that you heard God speak can bring unwanted tension and awkwardness to relationships. Although this deeply troubled me, I could not ignore the maker of the universe, my heavenly Father calling to me to walk closer, to take a leap of faith. I quickly realized that not every person I knew was seeking God in the most deepest and most intimate ways that I was and they felt disconnected from Him. This was rather heartbreaking for me in that I had to keep things to myself, just between me and God for fear of hurting my friends' feelings. I also committed my friends, whom I still refer to as family, to prayer. I prayed that they too would come to know this amazingly loving heavenly Father in the way that I have!

On my drive into the new "promised land" where God called me to move, I had a mighty vision of the Ark of the Covenant sitting on top of my car! I was alone and I prayed and asked God why was I seeing the Ark of the Covenant atop my car? He reminded me that this is what the Children of Israel did in the Old Testament on their way into their Promised Land. The priests carried the Ark of the Covenant into the parted waters of the Jordan first as the story goes, and the children followed them and Joshua their leader across on dry ground as the waters had parted, (Joshua 3).

On my way home from the "promised land" in which God has now placed me, I was distracted because I no longer saw the vision of the Ark of the Covenant! I asked God where it went. He said that it stayed there because I was to move with it!

So many things happened on this particular trip. Very subtle conformations to remind me that God was and is with me. I was driving alone and was very lost in the snow covered mountains at one point. There I was at 4000 feet elevation in light snow! I had not prepared for snow but light winter weather. I prayed that I would not need snow chains.

It was during this time that God, a good Father and coach, trained me his daughter to hear His voice better. He tested me with seemingly silly things, but always confirmed that I was in fact hearing His voice. Today, I realize how important it was for me to be tested in that way. He told me to get a room for the night, extend my trip by a few hours, and wait until morning when I could drive safely home.

Photo credits go to a very precious young man named J who had an impression from God and took these photos. He then told his Mom to show them to me! Thus inspiring the sweet memories of God running ahead of me  and leading my car down the mountain in the thick fog!

The next morning, I was more alert and could see that if I had not listened to His still quiet voice, I may have had a terrible accident along that snowy mountain! I was not experienced to drive in such conditions. There was so much fog after the snow dusting on the mountains that visibility was very bad. I quickly learned that I needed to get behind a big truck and follow it down the mountain with a good cushion between us.

I prayed very hard for God's protection over my self and the car. And then I saw Him! How beautiful HE is indeed! I saw the Father, God running ahead of me in the fog, down the mountain! A peace and wonder came over me! I had never seen such a sight! I was quickened in the Spirit and remembered that we can see God's back like Isaiah, who saw the train of His robes (Isaiah 6), and Moses who saw God's hand and His back (Exodus 33-34).

Since that mountaintop experience I have seen God through new eyes as a patient and loving Father who cares so tenderly for His children. Even when we are feeling lost, He will come and rescue us and show us the way. Stay tuned for Part 3 of my story, my journey with Jesus that lasted roughly from 2008-20012.

Are you feeling like you are in a foggy situation right now?

Is the path before you unclear? If you cry out to our heavenly Father, God the creator of the universe, He will answer and guide you with His Word which is Jesus. All you have to do is ask. 

In Psalm 119:105, King David promised that God's living Word will be a lamp to our feet and a light to our path.

This is the song that the Father reminded me of as I was about to post this blog. 

Be blessed, in Jesus' name.

Tenth Avenue North, By Your Side

Three Years Ago, Part 1

January 23, 2012 I picked up everything and moved over 400 miles away from my family, friends and the home I'd known for over 30 years. The truth is that I did not move far, but it was very hard for me in that I was overcome with fear. I'm sure that many people thought that I was crazy, even manic or psychotic. There was a series of events that led to my move.

Back in 2008 and all through 2011, I went through a great testing of my faith. This lasted for about 3-4 painful years. There was an incident of a public humiliation, and in addition to it all I was thrown into massive debt due to an oversight, and my beautiful cat Peachy died after an illness. I was subject to harsh gossip and malicious talk. I do not write this to show how I am a victim, but rather the opposite. I write this to show that if I could overcome, so could you by the power of forgiveness and by the grace and mercies of God.

The truth is that if it were not for Jesus taking on my sin, I certainly deserved all that drama and humiliation. I deserved it all! My trials certainly brought me to my knees in desperate prayer, and eventually to my face before the Lord especially in 2009, 2010, 2011... I fasted and prayed giving up the most precious thing to me: sleep and even food. I often gave up watching TV and social networking. This was my time to draw near to God for answers. No one knew that I was tired from praying all night and sometimes all day for 5-6 days a week! This is how desperate I was for breakthrough, how broken I was from the trials of my faith.

In Matthew 6, it says that we are to not boast about our fasting, when we fast. However, I feel that the time is right to share and to teach a bit about times of fasting where I longed for breakthrough and I feel that my story may help someone to their breakthrough. I did not talk about the fasting at the time, I kept it between myself and God. How can we know how to fast and pray if no one models it and teaches us and reports the revelation given?

After my move in 2012, I was on what I affectionately called my "journey with Jesus". It was a real leap of faith and a pleasant time with the Lord all at the same time.

I remember the weird feeling that I get in my teeth when I am terrified! They tingle and hurt and chatter. I heard every accusation of the enemy being thrown at me: about how frail he says I am, how stupid, how ugly, how broke, how slow, how I'm too old, my hair is too short, or too big or not styled right, my clothes are ugly, my body is too fat and on and on and on... However, in spite of those voices and lies of the enemy, I heard the voice of the One true God piercing through my chaos bringing me....to clarity and wisdom. He gave me detailed instructions. I followed and have never looked back.

I remember the way that I kept asking God to confirm it again, confirm it again, God. And He very graciously did, over and over: a phone call from an elderly intercessor that seemingly came out of the blue. And I've continued on in the strength of that confirmation and many others now for over 3 years.

What if, you never took the leap of faith that God is calling you to? What if breakthrough is on the other side of your leap?

I certainly lost friends in the big move. I gained a few new ones, and gained a few old ones back. In the end, only God's opinion of me is what matters. I feel stronger now. I've learned to not live for anyone but God. I've learned the hard way to not try to please everyone around me. I feel healthier now. It's like the girl who existed 3 years ago, not longer exists, but has been born again, transformed, renewed for the glory of God.

Romans 12:2 Amplified Bible
Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will  of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you].

The song "I Refuse" performed by Josh Wilson below came out around the time I was in this deep place of fasting and prayer. The words pierced my heart and convicted me as I wrestled with God's word to me about moving over 400 miles away from the only home I ever knew. Here are part of the lyrics and the official music video below:

...'Cause I don't wanna live like I don't care
I don't wanna say another empty prayer
Oh, I refuse to
Sit around and wait for someone else
To do what God has called me
To do myself!
Oh, I could choose
Not to move
But I refuse!
I refuse!
I refuse, yea!


Josh Wilson "I Refuse"